THIS IS MY NEW RELEASE CHECK IT OUT MKAY THANKS ITS CALLED CHRISTMAS BONUS 2009

Living a transient existence is a rough existence.  Always tired, never satisfied, never complete.  Always feeling like I'm searching for something thats just around the corner, never feeling like the corner gets any closer though.  

I *finally* got flash player to output with JACK today without using pulseaudio.



On debian, you must change your /home/username/.asoundrc to the following:

pcm.!default {
type plug
slave { pcm "jack" }
}


pcm.jack {
type jack
playback_ports {
0 alsa_pcm:playback_1
1 alsa_pcm:playback_2
}
capture_ports {
0 alsa_pcm:capture_1 1
alsa_pcm:capture_2
}
}


ctl.mixer0 {
type hw card 1
}




apt-get install libasound2-plugins



Now your alsa apps should run through jack by default

Apparently google chrome for linux and my rich text editor aren't friends. Whatever. I have been busy with life and living lately, and thus I haven't kept up on my site. I ended up quitting LTC, the band I had with Matt and the Scalises for obvious reasons. Shit, my world has been pretty upside down lately. Jason recently left to join the army, so It's been weird with him gone. All of my musical projects have been in a sort of stagnation again, but it happens. I'm hoping the project with Marcos picks up a little more, because thats what I'd like to do honestly. Playing games of magic has been more unpossible, because of a very unexpected falling out. I reboot my computer into Windows yesterday to play a game called "Lucidity" by LucasArts. The graphics and sound are fantastic, and the gameplay is fun. It was $10, so the price was right. I can't play it on any other computer I own, because apparently even games that aren't that graphic intensive are outpacing my hardware. What a pain in the ass. I wish more games were made for Linux. I need to focus on recording more.

This weekend, I stayed up late every night, hanging out with friends, or family.  I saw my late friend Christian's sister, Molly, in a very unexpected one day visit.  It was nice to see her, although I felt like I didn't actually catch up as much as I would have liked.  I went to a really cool show the next night at Merriweather called "Bugs on Broadway" with Isis.  It had about an hour and a half of Looney Tunes cartoons, with the Baltimore Symphony Orchestra doing the score for most of it.  One of the reasons I love old cartoons is the expressive nature of the score, since it was done with a full symphony.  Cartoons today just don't have that kind of mastery involved.  It's an art that has been really lost for the most part.  I have a show coming up with my band, although it's some kind of private party, at a public place, where I'm playing with my band, but not getting paid.  Wait, what?  I'm kind of annoyed to say the least.  I'd love to play some real shows for once, or have people come out to see me play. 

I feel like I am at a serious crossroad in my life.  Something huge is going to happen.  I know it seems like everything is the same, like I am churning through the same endless bullshit I do everyday, but something... something seems different to me.  Like the smell, and calm breeze, just before a snowfall.  Like the receding of the tides before a tsunami, I think it won't be long now before things are going to change significantly for me.

life is hard sometimes, but sometimes you have to bite the bullet and live it.  I can't describe it any other way.  Life has been hard lately for me, but I will keep living, and I intend to have everyone around me, that supports me, to live, and to help me live.  Good living to you, peace.

Quote:

Over the past four years I've asked police officers throughout the U.S. (and in Canada) two questions. When's the last time you had to fight someone under the influence of marijuana? (I'm talking marijuana only, not pot plus a six-pack or a fifth of tequila.) My colleagues pause, they reflect. Their eyes widen as they realize that in their five or fifteen or thirty years on the job they have never had to fight a marijuana user. I then ask: When's the last time you had to fight a drunk? They look at their watches.

All of which begs the question. If one of these two drugs is implicated in dire health effects, high mortality rates, and physical violence--and the other is not--what are we to make of our nation's marijuana laws? Or alcohol laws, for that matter.

Luna Sage was born February 17th, 2009.  She was 11lbs, 3oz., 23.5 inches and born at home.  Hammie the Hampster died on the 24th.  He was a good hampster, and will be missed.  I am going back to work tomorrow, and I feel like I want another week at home. It's snowing like crazy outside for the first time this winter, we might get half a foot.  Hopefully I can swing working from home tomorrow :-D

I will be posting a lot of pics soon, I just have to get some more time in between my EDH games with my new Elemental and Zombie decks and painting Last Night on Earth figurines.  I have so many pictures to go through!

I have been working on some tunes too lately, but nothing gets finished because my time is too divided right now.  It will get done eventually too.

I think I have hit a threshold of stress where I am no longer going to be productive.  My brain just seizes up, and I can't fucking think anymore.  I need a break, right now.  I can't do this anymore.

Just in case you had a few extra bucks, I'm trying to build a wicked cool zombie deck.  Here is my wish list: http://sales.starcitygames.com//showwishlist.php?user=Leskop

If you *do* get me something, please tell me so I don't buy another! Kat is extraordinarily preggo, and will pop any time now.  I have been working on a new song, but I don't know if it really fits any of the current projects I have.  If anything it is mostly band oriented.  I can't see electronica drums behind the multi-layered guitars and bass.  It seems like it would just sound unnatural.

This year has been pretty good to me. I actually accomplished programming code in java under the google web toolkit.  I still hate it.   I bought a house.  I started the process for another child.  I have been more active with producing new music than I have in previous years.  I keep feeling like my life is on the brink of a very major swing forward into something very new and different.  I'm not just talking about my new child though.  It's an inherent feeling of accomplishment.   I'd like to stay quit from smoking cigarettes and get into better shape this year than I have ever been.  I'd like to have my music career become my main focus and take off.  I'd like to get recognized for my work at my job as more than a minor footnote.  2009 is gonna be really awesome, I can feel it.  I will however take a moment to honor those that have left us this year.

Steven Michael Hutchison:  This guy was my boss.  I saw him every day.  I'm glad I didn't hear about him dying when I was still at the office, like I found out Christian.   That was the fucking worst.  My friend dies and his ex girlfriend contacts me on instant messanger to tell me about it while I'm in the middle of fixing all of these bugs.  Holy shit, I can still remember that like it was yesterday.    Steve wasn't like that.  Steve's death was just fucking brutal. He died in a car accident getting T-boned in his little Jetta by some teenager speeding in a fucking Ford F-150 and running a stop sign.  Apparently the car flipped multiple times.  The kid went to school with Steve's kids.  I only hope that his death was swift, and that his suffering was brief. 

Don Davis:  A person I hadn't talked to in many a year, but still somebody I considered a friend.  I will not divulge the details of his death, as there was no news article.  He's somebody I hoped would really do better in California than he did here.  He was quiet, but stuck to his convictions about the things he believed in.  There was chair tossing and bonfires in his honor.

Despite all of the carnage that may have ensued in 2008, I hope that I see you in 2009!  Happy new year!

The years end is drawing near.  I have had such glorious fun times with friends lately.  I went to the Brewery in Ellicott City last Sunday for their dollar beer night.  I hadn't been in a while.  It was good to see people again.  I went to Baltimore last night to hang out at the Whole Gallery.  This venue/living space has been a pivotal destination for many a cytoplastik oriented event.  I saw Florian, Phil, Sam, Kevin, Brianna, Brit, Drakos, Alycia, and a few other baltimore friends.  We watched a movie called "Funky Forest" last night.  It was pretty cool, but difficult to understand the humor at times.  It was also a little longer than I think that it needed to be.   I made Brett sneeze goldfish out of his nose when I mentioned the words "tentacle rape". . .   I watched Burn after reading tonight.  The plot was surprising to me in the end, and I think it's definitely worth watching. 

My impending child is to be here soon, and all I want to do is play Twilight Princess for the gamecube, on the wii...

My personal web pages have become ridiculously unmanageable now.  I never would have imagined that cytoplastik, or my website for that matter, would become so full of content.  Here I am though, with a system that is just not efficient enough anymore when it comes right down to it.  It needs to be redone.  The steps are so many, and the time and motivation so fleeting. 

Sometimes I wonder what it is that makes a person feel complete.  It's one of those questions that really has no precise answer for most.   The answer is nothing, but the question is, what does not make a person feel complete.  Anything can be the next big thing that a person desires.  The next big thing that can make them feel incomplete.   It's things like that which make me feel more wholesome in my religion of choice.  Nothing makes a person happy.  Being able to accept the previous statement as fact is where most people have a problem.  Can you?